Catching Up. Distractions.
Catching up. Distractions.I got a lot of things done last week so I could spend this week in language learning. Lots of admin, visiting the Ethiopians, random to-do list items, etc, etc. Then, I had a group of Ghanaians from Accra come up to stay with us on Friday morning because a church member, who now lives in Tamale, was married. It was a lovely engagement and wedding and thanksgiving service. As comfortable as I am living here in Ghana, I noticed I was more nervous about hosting Ghanaians. Maybe because my food is different from theirs, and it took me some time to like theirs, maybe they won't like mine? Or maybe because they are sooooo soooooo soooo hosptitable and serving while American culture is more "do whatever you want" "make yourself at home" "you do it". It is different. All the people just left yesterday.So, I was hoping to have a good language week starting Monday but I don't think that will happen. Another distraction that has come up and I need to deal with is my computer. Randomly, it will not turn on. I know I should have looked at this problem sooner but...as a middle child...we don't like confronting problems :) so, I keep hoping it will just go away. Well, yesterday I tried turning my computer on and it would just flash. Ei!!! I don't know what to do. I have a friend in Accra I can call but that is not much help. Thankfully, this morning it has turned on but I need to back everything up because who knows what will happen! OOOOOOO!!! I am so clueless and helpless in this area (sigh). "God, please heal my computer!" :)While our team leader is away, I am our Tamale treasurer. When I did a personality test, one thing that I found out was "not good at finances". YEP. SPOT ON. So, how did I get stuck with being the treasurer? I was the only one around at the time. I feel so bad for my teammates. I have been doing this role over a year now and I think I have two months where I did not mess up. It is so awful and really stresses me out and that has popped in this week too. Gotta love life! Oi!!I did listen to my recordings to say I did some language.I have also been preparing for giving a talk this weekend. You can be praying for that too. I have been trying to figure out what to say. I will be talking on "relationships". I will focus on having a strong relationship with the Lord, date only other believers, and remain pure. There will be a question and answer time but I told Pastor Andrew he may have to step in at that point. I don't know all about the "what is ok/not ok" in terms of dating and stuff. I guess I will learn this weekend!It's all about flexibility! Not always easy. Thanks for praying.
In The End, It Is All About Life and Peace
Of all the months I slack off from posting…so many things have happened. In a nutshell: I went to Chiana with Penny and Damary to celebrate, with the church, Pat’s farewell after 38 years of serving. I also had a great birthday with teammates. I was able to share to some friends the creation story and Adam and Eve eating the forbidden fruit and its consequences in DAGBANI!! I then traveled with Damary to Accra. I had two funerals to attend. One for Linda (age 36) and one for Aunt Theresa (age 68). I went to the morgue and the burial sites. I cried with friends and families. I stayed next to them. I helped wherever I could.Going to Accra, as fun as it is, brings me home exhausted. That is mostly my fault. In the in-between days of funeral things, I really should have rested. It was definitely more emotionally draining than I thought it would be. Instead of resting, I would call someone up and visit. My friends Daniel and Doris always feed me so well. My other friend always knows the newest restaurant. Church had times of prayer, which were so encouraging. Apex had birthday celebrations and ballroom dancing. I had to check out a cheeseburger place. Like I can say NO???[gallery ids="3435,3436,3438,3437,3439,3440,3441,3442" type="rectangular"]Damary and I came back to Tamale on the bus. I am not excited to be here. There were certain thoughts going thru my head while in Accra.
- People love me here (arrogant, I know). The fact that if I wanted, I could stay out every night with friends filled my heart with appreciation and fullness.
- I have deep relationships here. I lived here for 11 years. The youth I worked alongside are now working, dating, married, or whatever and I had some good heart talks with them. I pray I encouraged them as much as they encouraged me.
- Everyone keeps asking about me getting married so then my mind hangs on to the “why am I not married??” and wondering if something is wrong. My mind then latches on to some guy and wonders “what if…” Not a good road to go down.
- People here can understand me. People here have a bit of understanding of where I am from. People here have more education and can talk with me on the same level.
- Maybe I should work back here in Accra…no way. Well, maybe…No, you would hate it. Actually, it is not that bad…No, Tamale is much more relaxed. And my mind goes on with all this back and forth.
As I am back home, I call Tamale home, even though it does not feel like home. I call it home hoping that one day it will be home. So here, at home, I pray I would love this place. It is not easy or have all the conveniences of Accra. I do not have many friends here. I have to work so hard just to progress one step further in my ministry.As I let my mind wander to other what ifs and what elses and fantasies of living some other place…I sensed the Spirit nudge me, “Sherri, love me more than your desires. Have I ever made you regret?”As the bus rolled into Tamale last night, I was reminded that so many of these people are living without Christ and they are dying without Christ. I know the joys of knowing God. I have him with me everyday. Why do I not want to share that with people who have no clue? Isn’t it worth more than what I feel I am missing? I know I am not the most amazing missionary. I know many times I don’t know what to say or what I am doing. I know somedays other people could really do this better than me, but for some reason God wants me here. And, so I will sacrifice my desires daily. (So, easy to type but executing is a different story) I will learn this language and love people here, though as I type this tears fall because I have already failed numerous times. I feel I cannot do this but I will persevere. I will go on even though tomorrow I could choose a road that would give me an easier life.Don’t feel bad for me. I serve a living Savior who walks with me and speaks to the deepest parts of my heart. Don’t feel bad for me because I can’t get real creamy ice cream, I can get fufu. Don’t feel bad for me because I am single, the Spirit fulfills all my needs. Don’t feel bad for me because I can’t go to the theater and watch an exciting movie, my life is an adventure.I need more reminders of Truth. Romans 8:6 So letting the sinful nature control your mind leads to death but letting the Holy Spirit control your mind leads to life and peace.Life and Peace. It is what I have. It is what many of my neighbors don’t have. Father, help me share.
Back In The Saddle Again
Back in the saddle again people! Woo Hoo!! I was out and about with language this week. Cheers to Yvonne and the Ethiopians for letting me have a chance to get to it. I am very thankful. I came home one day and I said to Damary, "I had a real language day. Like, for real, like, talking to people and everything!" (Now, don't get carried away with the talking to people...I still barely can hold a conversation.)I had a situation come up. I will not be specific. But it was something I thought I had surrendered and it came up very quickly. If I would have given myself a moment to pray and wait on the Lord, I hope I would have made a better decision. But I made a wrong decision. And then I couldn't let it go. It consumed my mind and I knew I had to surrender this again. AGAIN!! When will I learn?? It took me 3 days to surrender. 3?! It always humbles me when I see how big of a talker I am. I am probably one of the top best pharisees in the world :) I love telling people what to do and what I would do in a situation but then...I never take my own advice. I never listen to me. I just do what I want.Psalm 84:11 got me through it. God is my sun and shield. He will never withhold a good thing from me. I have had to repeat that several times a day. I will not feel guilty. I have confessed. I have given it to God. He will continue to love me and pour His grace on me. That is it.It looks like the Ethiopians may have found accommodation! Yay! Hopefully, we can help them with the lease and all that in the next few days. It is in walking distance of the school they chose. They have 2 apartments close together and the price was right. We are so thankful! Next, they have to fill their apartments with furniture and whatever else they will need. I will be busy again!I am praying that I can be strategic in my language. Even if I cannot do a whole chunk of a day walking around greeting and talking with people. Maybe just an hour or something. I have to keep going. It is so hard and I have to review so many things. It is so easy to let myself be discouraged BUT I refuse to go down that road of thinking.Keep on Praying!
Normal Life


Hope Is In It
Serving, With A Side Dish of Crabby
Mixin' It Up Some More
One Week Goes Faster Than the Next
Back to Buipe
SLC 2018
Buipe


O So Crabby
One thing that gets me thru the day is my time with Jesus in the morning. But, three days this week I just could not put my whole heart into it. It was me. It was my bad attitude. It was just ugh and frustrating!Well, then, on Thursday I was like, "Ok, no more of this" and I gave Jesus my heart and sat down with Him and we had a such a sweet time together...Then, I went to town with Damary. I could barely talk to people. I had to buy something and it was like it was my only mission in life. When I got back into a yellow-yellow to go home this man next to us was kindly asking us in Dagbani where we are going. I said, without even looking at him, in English, "we are going home". He asked like three times and Damary kindly said in Dagbani that we were going home. I just was so angry. For what???!!! I don't know... then we almost get home and some cute kids come running to us calling our names. I was thankful they didn't call us "white person, white person or siliminga, siliminga" but our names. But then, they try pushing their way into our gate. They would never-evah do that with a Ghanaian. It is very disrespectful. We actually had to push them out of the door. It was awful. One girl had a tire she was playing with and I took it. That made them stop and then cry to have it back. I said you are being very disrespectful. I will take it to your mother. (I know their moms.) They were so angry but we were so angry too! Maybe there could have been a better way to handle that, I don't know. I did go later and give it to the girl's mother. The mother told me her children don't respect anyone. (sigh)We have some guests, one came yesterday and our power went off around 6pm. We had a nice candlelight dinner. Really, I have to say it is not romantic when you are all sweaty and hot. But thankfully, the light came back on. Unfortunately, it went off at 9pm and did not come back until 10.30am the next day!!! I was happy Penny had our battery powered fan. I don't know how she would have slept otherwise because let-me-tell-you I did not sleep! I went outside under a mosquito net and it was bearable but then the chemical in the net made me itchy the rest of the night and today. It was just one of those things I did not need, ya know? But, let me rejoice that our power came back . Our other guest arrived and I am hoping we don't have power out again tonight. (Please, Jesus NOOOOOOOO!!)But one way I got thru the night was I remembered at Christmas Mom and Dad gave me a little gift. It was a little fan you can plug into your phone. I was so excited when I remembered that. BUT THEN...I saw it was for IPhones only and I have an Android. UGHHH SAD!!! BUT THEN...I knew somewhere I had an IPod and guess what???! IT WORKED!!! And I didn't even have to use my phone battery. PRAISE THE LORD. (Talk about and up and down night, eh?) I don't want to sound like a big downer but there are times where I am just not too chippy. I don't want to pretend and make it seem life is flowers when it is not. But thankfully, Jesus is ALWAYS with me, whether I acknowledge His presence or not.Truth, baby. Truth.
Salome Visited
Tune in for my regular scheduled program starting next week...This week we had a lovely guest named Salome stay with us. She is a short term missionary from Switzerland but has lived in Jerusalem most of her life since her parents are missionaries there. She is probably one of the most mature 20 year olds I have ever met. She is so capable and independent. She is helping in Gushiegu doing children's work and a whole lot of other things from January until May. We told her that if she ever needed a break to come over to Tamale. And so she did.She arrived on Monday. I took her shopping in Tamale on Tuesday and then Wednesday Yvonne, Damary, Salome and I went to a pool to chill. It was lovely, especially since the weather has degrees in the 3 digits!!! Ugh... She headed back to Gushiegu on Thursday. She was attacked by ants in our house one night but other than that I think she was able to rest.It was also nice for me to get away from language learning, though I am speaking Dagbani of course, as we go to town and such. I am psyching myself up that this next week and the rest of the month will be serious Dagbani times!!Though, I had a time away from language I still found myself angry. In the car yesterday I said to Damary, "I am so angry and have no reason to be!" We both are memorizing Romans 8 and I said let's start saying our verses. I need to be surrounded by truth and have truth in my mind. It helped...as God's Word usually does :)Love you. Hope all is well! Thanks for praying!
Easter 2018
Sewing and Dagbani!

Rain, Language, and Pads
I did not take any pics this week. Weird. I usually use pics to remind me of who I saw, what I did or things that happened.I did language, is what I did all week. And it has been soooo hot! OY! On Tuesday as I was walking home I saw some clouds gathering. It had just rained the night before so I thought, this can't be rain again. But little by little the wind picked up. People were calling to me, "Wunizooya, come here, it is going to rain!" but as small drops fell, I told them the rain feels good. I really thought it would just be a few drops...but it was a lot more than that! I got home soaked thru. I have to say, I really did not mind. I was so hot and that rain and wind just cooled me down. It has been in the 100s. Beautiful blue skies and yellow sun contrasting with the red dirt and patches of green grass...but oh, the heat!One funny experience in my language time this week: I met a woman named Mayli. She took me around to greet her friends. Now, my cyst wound still has not closed completely. It opens up almost once a week. When it opens it bleeds a little. I thought it was going to bleed and I didn't want blood on my dress. SOOOOO...I took a light day pad, a sanitary pad (very thin, small one) and stuck it to the back of my slip under my dress. That way it could soak up the sweat and blood, if there is any blood. As we were walking and walking and sweating and sweating I felt for the pad and it moved. I tried moving it back. Then later, I think part of it rolled up because it was sticking the wrong way. Then later...I could not find it! When I got home, I looked at my slip...no pad.So...that means... somewhere around Mayli's village there is a pad!!! It must have dropped out while we were walking. I hope no one saw it. Maybe it even stuck to my flipflop!! Ohhhh the joys!!! LOL :)I am glad I can laugh because Dagbani really drains me. I am still stickin' with it. I have this week to again push thru and talk. On Monday, Rafia and I will go and buy a sewing maching. This will not be electric or foot pedaled. To sew you turn the side wheel with your hand. Should be an experience! I also, hope to get my braids taken out. I really thought I could make it 3 weeks, but I cannot. I just want them out. I want my own hair back!Love you. Thanks for praying!
OOO Craziness
Another Week

